I was intrigued by the beginning but didn't get further. Especially as Brian Nishii has a great audiobook voice. Apparently I've heard him before in The Heart Principle by Helen Hoang.

A Tokyo college student's discovery and eventual obsession with a stolen handgun awakens something dark inside him.
On a nighttime walk along a Tokyo riverbank, a young man named Nishikawa stumbles on a dead body, beside which lies a gun. From the moment Nishikawa decides to take the gun, the world around him blurs. Knowing he possesses the weapon brings an intoxicating sense of purpose to his dull university life. But soon Nishikawa's personal entanglements become unexpectedly complicated: he finds himself romantically involved with two women while his biological father, whom he's never met, lies dying in a hospital. Through it all, he can't stop thinking about the gun--and the four bullets loaded in its chamber. As he spirals into obsession, his focus is consumed by one idea: that possessing the gun is no longer enough--he must fire it.

Just the sort of blurb I used to be drawn to. Before covid and I became hooked on the HEA! ( )

The storytelling follows a satisfying if predictable noir arc; the real dazzle for me isn't in the storytelling, though, but in the grotesque details, meticulously observed and reported by the narrator, about both humans and animals that he observes in pain throughout the novel. This is Nakamura's first novel and it demonstrates a lot of self-control and natural talent for pacing. ( )

It almost reads like an after-the-fact confession, the killer telling you everything that lead up to the killing, from finding the gun to executing his victim- an act he doesn't really plan so much as allows to happen. Read this way it's more interesting than simply the psychological portrait of a man obsessed, although it is that as well. Definitely not your usual crime novel though- just know that much before you start. For me it was a quick and ultimately satisfying read. ( )

Aiming to up my # of reviews, I'll quick comment on kindle samples I've read lately -- this was one I don't think I need to continue with, though it was capitvating enough.

Though it is a short book it took me several weeks gradually to read it.

An intensely visceral, psychological work it takes you inside places one doesn't usually go. Places that relate to all levels of obsession with mechanized violence. Places one doesn't want to go because though inexorable and detached from reality as they are, they are places we can find within or not far from all of us. The writer wields incredible technique with minimal resources. Whether he takes us to these places through control of sensation or we already occupy them makes little difference. The atmosphere is not one filled with tons of charachters or descriptive detail, but there is more than enough to achieve the effect the author wants us to experience. At first it all has the feel of morbid preoccupation and so one tends to want to write the main character/narrator off as being a marginal entity and the authors intentions likewise, but as we follow the progression we see more, whether we want to admit it, or not, people we know,and precoccupations which the larger populations, almost unanimously, claim indifference to. This novel is the description of a terrain which is not penetrated by crime entertainment or news. What we are usually given are tales that mirror the myths, legends and stories of old. We do not plumb the absence of feeling that pervades and the agony that results, the emotional mechanics that happen with component parts we all possess. We prefer absolute evil to be alien to our lives. ( )