“It is not some dramatic breakdown. Rock bottom, in fact, is very mundane: it is simply an inability to see the point in anything and only wonder why on earth everything looks and feels so bad, so painful and so wrong. He feels stuck somewhere between dead and alive, and cannot imagine any place worse.”

There are so many things that went wrong in this book. First off, the main characters, Matheo and Lola. There’s nothing that really connects the reader to the main characters so I never developed feelings for them. In fact, Matheo was down right annoying as a narrator. His inner monologs took up pages on how much he was in love with Lola, or how beautiful a sunset was, and then he would repeat himself in the next chapter. I’m sure I ended up skimming over most of it toward the end of the book.

I don’t understand the point of Matheo losing his memory of the accident. It didn’t add anything to the story and it made his character even more confusing. Maybe the author was trying to make a huge build-up to the eventual big reveal at the end, but it fell completely flat. In fact, most techniques fell flat. At one point the author tried to redirect your thoughts into a different direction which just made one big mess of Matheo’s dialog.

At one point at the end of the book Matheo suddenly became a psychic and had a dream about a future event! *gasp*! It was unnecessary and deserved a facepalm of shame.

Lola isn’t as bad as Matheo, but she can be melodramatic and she doesn’t react well to the situation for someone who is so in love with the boy. Their best friends, Hugo and Isabel, are the only two who have a realistic reaction to the situation and I found those characters the most intriguing.

The topic of the story is one that defiantly one that needs to be highlighted more and I love that the author tried to bring it into the light, but the book failed miserably. The characters were underdeveloped, the dialog was flat, and the story repeated itself too much for the reader to be able to get too deep into the plot. ( )

The following review is my thoughts of the book copy and pasted from a buddy read and contains spoilers in the first sentence don't read this review unless you have read the book already.

I started suspecting her dad shortly before it was revealed but it was close enough that it was still a surprise. I liked that, that was who it was but I think her suicide was totally unnecessary and unbelievable. I think this author is big on the whole self sacrifice for love thing but it just didn't work for me, she killed herself so he would be able to move on and not think about it when he sees her? That's dumb, he loved her and if she thought killing herself was the best thing for him she is stupid. Maybe if she couldn't live with her dad being a rapist and it caused some emotional turmoil and depression I would believe it. I also didn't like all the false implications of him committing a crime or being a criminal, or talking about how he is a monster for what he did and even having a dream about killing someone. I understand that the author wants to use misdirection so that the big reveal is more of a shock but she can't just give us a bunch of bullshit about him doing something bad himself with no explanation for it later. I feel cheated. I also wasn't upset in the least when lola killed herself because I didn't care about her at all, even though she was a main character in this story she wasn't really much more than matheo's girlfriend and I wish her character was a little more developed. My last complaint is that I got bored of the whole "something bad happened but I can't tell you" conversation and then he runs off and she chases him. It was a bit repetitive. Despite all that I did enjoy it though, and gave it three stars, I think the author tells a good story but is not that good of a writer. ( )